I haven’t been on here in a while. Well, I have, but I haven’t been posting anything. So I need to vent/complain/cry/BRAINLEAK.

Life has been stupid lately. That’s the only word I can describe it to. In a world full of interaction and connections, I’m alone. I’d rather be that way. I’ve lost people and haven’t gained anything. I’m fine with it, is that bad? I haven’t been close to God & that bothers me. I have a few things holding me back but I can’t get rid of them. Just knowing that I won’t fully live up to what God has in store for me makes me so depressed. But I always have a smile on and I never express myself like this. Not even to my boyfriend & that upsets HIM. I guess I’m just really good at upsetting people. I’d like to go to the beach next weekend. Just me, myself & I. That’d be great. D: It’d only take me 2 hours to go to Myrtle Beach. I wonder if my parents would let me. Well, I’m 18 technically I can just go. :D I’m happy again. haha

I’m about to put my two weeks into Build A Bear. I asked for 2 days off during the week and they denied my request. Well, if I get scheduled that day I’m NOT working. So I’m going to put my two weeks today. Hopefully I can find a resturant that’s hiring this time of year. I wish IHOP would take me back. But nahhhhhhh.